dismantling the clown

I am sitting in MY OWN bed.... atop a lovely pale, sage green duvet cover that protects my yummy down comforter. And I'm purring. That is to say, if I could do such a thing ... you would be able to hear it through my fingertips that dance upon this laptop at the moment. I LOVE being home. My hubby slumbers peacefully next to me (he loves me being home too), my kitty kat is sleeping at the end of the bed, with a paw draped across my ankle (yes, her too). I have scrubbed the last of the warpaint from my face, laid my newly acquired Sweet Adeline medals on the night stand, and opened the slider slightly so I can hear the fountainthe lanai. I enjoyed a long conversation with Pa over a Joe's steak, caught up on my WWF games I missed over the past 4 days, rinsed the evidence of the weekend from my stage costume & tucked all my performance "supplies" into their storage space. I was encouraged to enjoy a long, cozy bubble bath with a brewed latte (and complied), and am currently counting my blessings. They include, but are not limited to .... a husband (& Pa) that support (and help) in the preparation & participation of my music... spending time with amazing women (and a select few that I am particularly attached to) .... my mom & dad watching me perform from the highest vantage point (they will never be too busy again) .... being welcomed home with much ado .... being rewarded for a lot of dedication and hard work .... and coming home without feeling guilty for being away! It was a fast paced, late nighted, talk-a-liscious weekend with an anxiety ridden potential that never came a callin'..... and as happy as I am to be home, I look forward to the next challenge that brought it all on. & tomorrow is another opportunity for just that!