and so ... being that "heaven" is pretty much thought of as perfect. I figure these two look just about like this, and that's the way I want to remember them.
When my mom died 14 months ago- I chose not to be at her bedside during those last hours. It was a conscious decision that some didn't understand, & others didn't like. But I didn't think it was about them ... it was about mom- and she would understand. I would have chosen the same circumstances with dad ... but this time, I wanted to support & help my sisters. Death of those close to them can still be counted on one hand. Having lost the majority of my own elder family members .... this is not my first dog & pony show. It's a time of significant hurt, depression & sadness for me, and it's then difficult to get back to the pictures in my head of what I WANT to remember about those I have loved & lost. AS EXPECTED- I am dealing with that .. and I know it will get easier. I just wish the dreams would hurry up & turn to things more pleasant ... like flower, and unicorns and princesses. I will keep this picture close and perhaps, sooner rather than later ... their smiles will be engrained in my heart & mind.
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thanks for staying, it meant a lot to the three of us.
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