Thursday, April 25, 2013

what if's that can change your life, even if only for a couple of days....

Up until this morning ... I was seriously pondering my own mortality.  There have been times when it's brushed through my mind in a moment of time, but this was different... it lasted for days.  I was having some symptoms that resembled those of a life threatening condition.  And because I know a little too much at times, while not knowing near enough... I was reading & worrying & FORTUNATELY- it kicked me into gear into making a dr appointment that was a bit over due.  Leading up to the above mentioned appt, I had some tests run & some of their results explained my symptoms!  In this time bubble I find myself in, none of this is as important as the thoughts I dealt with for these past few days.  I was evaluating decisions and setting priorities, and .....wondering.  Wondering if I needed to start getting my affairs in order.  Wondering how long I might have to adore the things I am most passionate in my life.  Before I came to any conclusions ... this particular bullet was dodged.  In the meantime, I hugged & kissed my husband a few extra times each day ... and I wrote a few letters.  
And now, the fire beneath me has been turned down just a bit, to give me time to take care of things that need to be a-taken care of!!  (with this, I turn my eyes upward & thank my lucky stars)

1 comment:

Cindy Welch said...

Sometimes it takes moments like this to show you what and whom are important. Do what you love everyday, and thats what you do.