tears for one (perhaps) undeserving ...

I have wondered on more than one occasion, what I would do with this information.  Fact is- I wondered if I would even be notified!  I have issue with some of the declarations written here .. but then, is there any point to even care?  
With ONE exception-  in 1970, I was ALWAYS the one to reach out.  to call.  to announce.  to send cards.  to make invitations.  ME.  
And, as if I had not been ignored often & long enough ... I did so again about 7 years ago after a 20+ yr absence and was again dismissed.  (cordially & quietly, but none the less ... pretty much ignored).
I will likely send a card or letter.  I will likely extend condolences.  Because that is who I am.  But attend a gathering to "celebrate" a life I was not a part of .... no.  I would not be welcome in his death anymore than in his life, and no one would likely notice.
It's a chapter I no longer have to wonder what if or maybe when.  
HE was the one who missed out & if he can rest in peace with that fact, so be it.  
I can.