time doesn't stand still ... but neither does the healing.

It's been ..... different since Pa's passing (of course).   It's been busier actually ... but in a far different way.  Our time clock is less rigid and yet- more result focused.  Our planning sessions together more goal oriented.  Our meals ... oddly timed.  But the healing of our hearts?  Well, with time it will feel more like we are making progress there.  To say we are not relieved on some level wouldn't be acurate.  We are ... relieved that our worry about Pa's safety or comfort, or health is now a mute point.  Relieved that his final days were FAR LESS uncomfortable than is common with the diagnosis he was facing.  Relieved that his difficulties with decreasing mobility & endurance particularly over

these past couple of years ... are over.  And yes I admit, a little uncomfortably- relieved that his illness didn't become a hardship for the Capt & my relationship.  This is not to say it was always candy & roses ... but it MOSTLY was!  The 3 of us made a lot of great memories together and we have NEVER regretted our home becoming his home.  Not once.  BUT- with the work ahead of us to physically "move him out", since he's taken off for the high ground (?) ... we decided to take a full day off & think of ourselves.  We used to do it every 2-3 months, but with our concerns ... it's been a while.  An hour into our stay-cation (almost), I thanked the Captain for making this day all about me.  An hour later, he did the same ..... and we knew that this 24 hours, would be just the emotional tank refill we both needed.  Some fresh air, a lot of talking & walking, & a bottle of wine.  It was just what the doctor would have ordered!  (and just what Pa would've wanted for us as well)